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  I stand on

  Top of the mountain,

  Looking up in the sky

  And watching the birds

  Go by.

  The clouds look

  As comfy as a pillow,

  Then I look down below.

  I see

  The beautiful

  Green grass and

  Small insects crawling

  And flying.

  Beautiful flowers

  Covering the ground

  And also, rose bushes

  By the house.

  The breezy wind

  Blowing my hair

  And the smell of the

  Roses in the air.

  Hurtful Lies

  The hurtful

  Lies that you’ve

  Told me have

  Threw me so far

  From myself that I

  Forgot what love

  Really means.

  I sit and wonder

  Why 98% of people

  Are liars and 2% of people

  Are real.

  I thought you

  Were part of that 2%

  But I guess I was wrong.

  I’ve tried

  To trust and

  Believe but

  Now I can’t because

  Of all your

  Hurtful lies.

  Nature Melts My Soul

  Nature melts

  My soul with love

  And desire.

  It melts like

  Drip… drip… drip

  With desire.

  The Unexpected

  Shallow roads

  Below my feet

  Takes me places

  I’ve never seen before.

  Unknown life sends

  Me messages of uncertainty

  As I become closer to the

  Living.

  I am unaware

  Of my place of being

  As I don’t know it.

  I can’t fit into the

  Life of unexpectedness.

  Smell of Rain

  As I walk outside

  I can sense rain is coming-

  Sense of smell in rain

  Sinful Consciousness

  Our sin

  Is loving the

  Demons within

  Us that feeds us

  Heartbreak.

  Numbness occurs

  When we choose to

  Not feel reality,

  And live in a fantasy.

  Livelihood only exists

  In our minds, never to be

  Recognized.

  Seas of joy

  Drains into the

  Dirt, drying out

  Into nothing but

  Selflessness.

  Feelings are

  No longer deep

  In our souls.

  Gravity lifts

  Us up into dreams

  Of consciousness,

  Wishing we were there.

  Your Life

  Clouds dripping

  Rain like a person

  Drops tears in their fears,

  Happiness, and sadness.

  But when it comes

  A time when they want to

  Be happy always,

  They find a way

  To make it worse

  At the end of the day.

  It’s like wanting

  An outfit minus the shorts

  When shorts is what

  Makes the outfit be what

  It is.

  You pick

  What you want

  To be,

  Sad, mad, or happy

  Or do you just want

  To be all sappy and

  Lonely because

  When it comes down

  To it,

  What you choose

  Is what you’re going

  To be,

  You’ll see.

  Protected

  She feels safe,

  She feels protected,

  Whatever happens

  She knows she’ll neglect it,

  But she will fight it.

  She knows what’s

  Happening,

  Sometimes it’s good

  And sometimes it’s bad,

  Sometimes when it’s gone,

  She feels like sighing.

  Whenever she’s alone

  Or thinking,

  She thinks about

  How she feels

  And thinks about

  What she has to live

  Through probably

  For the rest of her life.

  She knows she’s

  Not neglected

  And she knows

  That when she doesn’t

  Feel safe or is scared,

  She will always be

  Protected.

  Never Let Go

  They’re close

  More than ever

  There’s nothing to

  Break them apart.

  They talk,

  They laugh,

  They’ll never

  Go short.

  It seems

  As if they’re

  So close,

  They’ll never

  Let go.

  My One And Only Love

  Love is

  What I feel

  When I’m with you.

  I feel it

  So much

  I don’t know

  What to do.

  Whenever

  I’m with you,

  Nothing can break

  Us apart, not even

  A earthquake that

  Shakes us so hard.

  I feel like

  You’re the only

  One that’s

  In my heart

  And will always

  Be in my heart.

  So, my love

  For you will never

  Change,

  It’ll never be exchanged

  For nothing else

  Because you are my

  One and only love.

  In The Storm

  You don’t know

  How it feels to feel bad,

  You don’t know how it feels

  To be sad.

  You think

  That people

  Get over it,

  But they don’t.

  All the stuff

  That happens to you,

  It feels like you’re in

  A storm but you know

  You’ll find a way to deal with

  It.

  As I Can See

  You say you

  Love me as I can hear,

  But you say that

  You have fear.

  I look at you

  And you look away,

  But it seems like you’re

  Just ignoring me,

  As I can see.

  You come

  Say hello,

  I say hi and then

  You leave without

  A goodbye.

  I’m wondering

  What is going on

  And why you treat

  Me the way you do.

  Well, I’m done,

  I’m through with you.

  Save Me

  Save me

  From this dark

  Path in which I’m

  Walking on.

  Save me

  From all the

  Hurt and all the

  Pain that has

  Been thrown at me.

  Save me

  From the

  Bad people

  That hurt me and

  The bad things

  That’s happened to me.

  Save me

  From everything

  And anyone that cares,

  But they really don’t.

  Just save

  Me from the

  Bad world.

  Please, Someone Help Me

  Dark places

  And spaces closing

  In on
me,

  I’m stuck, I can’t

  Get out.

  So I just shout,

  Hoping someone

  Can hear my shout out

  For help, but no one

  Hears me.

  It’s like

  I’m closing in

  Through a wall,

  Again trying to call

  For help.

  There’s no one there,

  But I don’t think I can

  Bear it anymore to be in

  A cold, dark, place.

  I do

  Everything I can

  To break this

  Wall and go out freely,

  But it’s too strong

  Like ice.

  I’m stuck,

  I can’t get out,

  Please someone,

  Help me out.

  Feelings For You

  Standing in the rain

  Getting soaked,

  I get choked up because

  I hear your voice,

  I see your face,

  I feel I can’t be without

  You but I will give you space,

  So that you can feel

  The same way I do.

  When we

  Hang out,

  I can’t help

  But smile for more

  Than awhile.

  You light up

  My world,

  You’re everything

  And that’ll always

  Be true.

  I Have A Fear

  I have

  A fear of hurt,

  That I won’t

  Be happy.

  I have

  A fear of happiness,

  Fearing that it

  Won’t last.

  I have

  A fear of people,

  A fear that they’ll

  Degrade me.

  I have

  A fear of trust,

  That I will never

  Be able to

  Trust anyone.

  I have

  A fear that

  All these fears

  I have won’t

  Vanish .

  That’s my

  Main fear.

  Guardian Angel

  They watch you,

  They watch me,

  Wherever we go,

  That’s where they’re

  Going to be.

  They help

  With problems,

  They tell us

  How to deal with

  Them.

  They stay

  With us day

  And night,

  They’ll never leave

  Our side.

  We all have

  One and I’m glad

  We do,

  And they’ll be with

  Us forever too.

  Make Love To My Heart

  Make love

  To my heart

  And soul.

  Cherish and love

  My feelings.

  Touch the depths

  Of my spirit.

  Kiss the pain

  And hurt away.

  Make love

  To my heart

  And place your hands onto

  My sacred place

  So that maybe,

  It’ll only stay sacred

  For me and you.

  Make love

  To my heart

  And feel all my

  Emotions as we

  Go through these

  Motions of desire

  And pleasure.

  Make love

  To my heart

  Day and night

  Until midnight.

  Caress my most

  Insecure spots and

  Make them secure

  With your loving

  Ecstasies.

  Make love

  To my heart

  And make me cry

  With all kinds of

  Wild emotions.

  Make love

  To my heart and

  Never stop.

  Caring For You

  I’ve never

  Cared for anyone

  The way I care

  For you.

  You’re my everything

  And that’ll always

  Be true.

  I’ll always love

  And care for you

  No matter what

  We go through.

  True Liar

  You have

  Hidden behind

  Your lies,

  The true you.

  The you that

  Never spoke true

  Words into the ears

  That would have rather

  Heard “I don’t love you”.

  I tried to deny

  What I heard from

  Other people.

  I tried to

  Block the negativity,

  The explicitly and

  Harshness of words

  That told the meaning

  Of you.

  But, in my heart,

  I knew all of what

  Was said was legit.

  See, I never thought

  I would see you as

  A true liar,

  Because in my mind,

  You wasn’t that.

  All of a sudden,

  Visions of the future

  That I once had about

  You had vanished.

  I believe in

  The truth and

  The only truth in

  You is your lies.

  Unafraid Love

  Hearts collide

  Into one faithfully,

  Fearless of one’s heartbreak.

  Ceilings crash

  Onto unforgiving hearts,

  Crushing feelings of hurt

  And pain.

  Now, maybe love

  Won’t be so bad,

  Maybe it won’t be so

  Painful.

  Love is like

  Mother nature,

  You never know

  What comes until

  You stay and pay

  Attention to what

  It really means.

  Souls intertwine,

  They connect mentally.

  They collect intimacy

  From their soulful

  Minds and hearts.

  Feelings spread

  Throughout their

  Souls,

  Making them closer.

  Livelihood is now

  Trusting and loved

  And love is now fearless.

  Fighting For Her

  He leaves

  To go and fight

  In the war,

  She cries, thinking

  He might never

  Come back

  And escape

  Being shot and

  Killed.

  He still calls

  Every day and night,

  Hearing her cry,

  Saying I love you

  In case he gets killed.

  He says he

  Loves her back

  And he’ll be home

  Soon,

  Saying they’ll

  Look at the stars

  And moon like they

  Always used to.

  She believes

  Him when he says

  He’s doing this for her,

  But she never wanted

  Him to sacrifice his

  Life for her.

  The next day,

  She heard a knock

  On the door,

  Thinking it wouldn’t

  Go well.

  She opened

  The door and

  There he was,

  She smiled and gave

  Him a big hug.

  He told

  Her he loved

  Her and that he

  Did it to fight for her.

  Oceans And Seas

  Oceans and seas,

  How beautiful they ar
e,

  They in which I would

  Come to see from afar.

  Boy crush

  He looks,

  He stares,

  He smiles,

  He glares.

  He passes me

  Down the hallways,

  He will protect me always.

  I blush

  When he

  Comes around,

  When I need him,

  I know he’ll

  Always be around.

  Sometimes,

  I get nervous

  And don’t know

  What to do or say,

  But all I think about

  Is him all day.

  Wonderful Gift

  This gift

  Is a gift that

  You’ll always

  Remember,

  This gift is a gift

  That is soft and tender.

  This gift

  Is a gift that

  You can never

  Replace,

  This gift is a gift

  That’ll always be in

  A special place.

  This gift

  Is a gift that

  You should

  Always treasure,

  This gift is a gift

  That you could

  Always share.

  Feelings

  You hurt,

  You cry,

  You laugh,

  You sigh.

  You wonder

  If people care,

  You wonder if

  They feel your

  Pain.

  Sometimes,

  You feel as if

  People don’t care,

  You wonder if people

  Have feelings.

  Do they have

  Feelings?

  Or do they just

  Act as if they do.

  Nature

  Trees moving

  Back and forth,

  Wind as breezy

  As ever.

  Birds chirping

  out your window,

  They’re always

  There to sing to you.

  The sun is shining,

  Bright as a star at night.

  Bumblebees fly

  Their beautiful

  Wings up and down.

  Animals and creatures

  Running around,

  Place to place.

  It’s all part

  Of one thing

  And that’s nature.

  Floating In Air

  I’m numb,

  No feelings at all,

  Sitting there…

  Staring.

  Feeling like

  I’m floating

  In air.

  I feel

  Light,

  Like I’m

  Empty.