Deepening Soul Vol.1 Read online

  Feeling stuck,

  Out of my place.

  I sit there,

  Floating in air.

  Relationships

  Relationship suck

  That I just hide and duck,

  Never getting sucked

  Into it again.

  Relationships

  Is apparently not

  For me from what

  I can see.

  I get hurt

  And get burnt

  From what he has

  Done to me,

  I guess relationships

  Just isn’t for me.

  I Think About You

  I’m laying down

  In my bed,

  Not hearing a sound.

  I think

  About you

  And how you

  Changed my

  Life around.

  I think about

  The way you hold

  Me tight with all your

  Might and never let go.

  I think about

  When you first

  Said you loved me

  And I cried and said

  I love you back.

  I think about

  You kissing me

  With those soft lips

  Of yours, passionately

  That I just wanted it to

  Never end.

  I think about

  When you come

  Up to me,

  Give me the biggest

  Hug and tell me you’ll

  Always be here for me

  No matter what and

  That you love me.

  R.I.P Michael Jackson

  It’s been hard

  To let this go.

  It’s been hard

  Trying to fight

  The tears away.

  You don’t know

  How hard it is

  For us to just forget.

  We can’t forget,

  Because he was

  Everything to us.

  He is our

  Inspiration,

  Our love of music,

  Our love of dance.

  He is the

  King of Pop

  And that’ll

  Never change.

  Forgiven But Never Forgotten

  The bad feelings

  I had has now gone

  Away like a spirit

  Has now gone into

  The light.

  The shame I felt

  With how you

  Hurt me has now

  Blown away as with

  A leaf that is blown

  Off a tree by the wind.

  The tears that

  I’ve cried have

  Now dried like

  Rain drying on

  The sidewalk

  Concrete.

  But, the pain

  That I felt because

  Of you is like a knife

  Piercing into my soul

  That I will never forget.

  I can forgive you

  But, I will never

  Forget what

  You’ve done.

  Your Love

  You’ve pierced

  My soul with

  Your love.

  You’ve wiped

  My tears with your

  Beautiful hands

  That holds me now

  And forever.

  You’ve protected

  Me from the darkness

  In which tried to keep

  Us apart.

  You’ve swept

  Me away with

  The kindest and

  Purest of your

  Heart and soul.

  Oh, how can I

  Just act as if you

  And your love is not

  There.

  Fire

  Fire is not

  All that bad.

  Fire can also

  Be the kind of

  Feeling that warms

  You heart with

  Love and warmth.

  Seeking My Reality

  I don’t know

  Where I am,

  I don’t know how

  I got here,

  I just need to find

  My way back to reality.

  I’m somewhere

  In a foreign place.

  I’m going

  Place to place,

  Trying to find out

  Where I am,

  Trying to find out

  Where I fit in.

  I’m lost

  And I’m seeking

  My reality.

  Do You Care?

  Do you care

  About me?

  Do you care

  About who I

  Want to be?

  Do you care

  About who I am?

  Do you care

  About me not

  Having all the fame?

  Do you care

  About me just

  Being myself?

  Do you care

  About me doing

  What I want for

  Myself?

  Well,

  Now I know….

  You care.

  Never Too Young Or Too Old

  Sitting on

  The soft, powdery

  Sand at the beach.

  Drinking ice cold

  Lemonade in the sun.

  Hanging out,

  Chasing your

  Friends around

  The park like

  Normal people

  Always do.

  Going to

  The playground

  With your baby.

  Everybody

  Wants to have fun,

  Even grown-ups,

  People walking

  Down the street

  Saying what’s up.

  Everybody can have

  Fun and play

  In the sun and you’ll

  Never be too young

  Or too old.

  Walking Underneath Water

  You’re walking,

  You don’t know

  Where you’re headed.

  You feel as if

  You’re lost and

  You don’t know

  How to get back to

  Where you were.

  It seems like

  You will never

  Get to where

  You once was.

  You wander

  And wander,

  Trying to find the

  Place you were at.

  You wonder

  If you’ll ever find

  That place,

  You wonder if you’ll

  Ever get there.

  Thinking Of You (R.I.P JaNay S. Roberts)

  I’m thinking

  Of you day and

  Night,

  I wish that you

  Were by my side.

  I’m glad that

  You’re safe,

  But I’m sad you

  Got taken away.

  It hurts me

  That you’re gone,

  I thought you were

  Here for long.

  You’ll always

  Be in my heart,

  I will never let you go,

  I’ll always love you

  And I’ll be thinking

  Of you.

  I’m filled

  up with

  Misery,

  I don’t know

  What to do.

  They say I’m

  Worthless and

  I agree with them

  Too.

  I feel

  Like I’m stuck

  Where I

  Don’t belong

  So, here I am

  Writing sappy

  Poems and singing

  Sappy songs.

  My heart

  Is filled with

  Misery and I still

  Have no clue what

  To do.

  Never Take You
Back

  Me,

  Wondering how

  I could ever

  Think that you

  Were here with me

  And me holding on

  So strong to you

  When you never wanted

  Me to.

  You know,

  It’s hard trying

  To love you but

  It’s harder trying

  To forgive you,

  To want

  To hold you.

  Butterfly

  Butterfly, butterfly,

  Fly your wings.

  Butterfly, butterfly,

  Come and stand on

  My hand.

  Butterfly, butterfly,

  Go fly your wings

  And one day,

  Please come back

  Again.

  Fantasy Like World

  I’m living

  In a fantasy

  Like world.

  Where I never

  Get hurt,

  Never feel bad,

  Feeling happy and

  Glad to live

  In this world.

  I’m living

  In this fantasy

  Like world,

  But it’s only

  A dream.

  I can never

  Have a fantasy

  Because I’m never

  Not sad.

  So this

  Fantasy like

  World that I’m

  Suppose to live

  In is just a fantasy

  Like world.

  Untitled

  The smell of roses

  Stings the senses of my nose-

  It’s sweet and mellow

  Definition Of Mother Nature

  Mother nature

  In which I stand

  Has suddenly

  Pierced my soul

  In ways you wouldn’t

  Understand.

  The liveliness,

  The beauty,

  A definition of

  Mother nature

  Is that.

  Why Do I…?

  Why do I

  Live?

  Why do I

  Love?

  Is it because

  I was a gift

  From the man

  Above?

  Why do I

  Smile?

  Why do I

  See?

  Is it because

  I was meant

  To be happy and

  Not sappy and

  To be happy with

  being

  me?

  Why do I

  Feel?

  Why do I

  Touch?

  Is it so that

  I can feel your

  Love for me and

  Touch your heart

  With the beautiful

  Soul that I have?

  I ask myself

  These questions

  But I don’t

  Have an answer

  For any of them.

  So I ask you,

  Am I worth it?

  Hard Not To Love You

  I can’t

  Control the way

  I feel when I’m

  Around you.

  I try to

  Erase you

  Out of my head,

  But I can’t.

  The way you smile,

  The way you laugh

  Is like a beautiful

  Treasure.

  The way you talk

  So passionately

  Is music to my ears.

  Sometimes,

  I wish I didn’t

  Love you,

  But then again,

  You can’t help

  Who you love.

  Fragrance

  The smell of

  Perfume.

  Sweet coconuts

  And lime.

  Morning Nature

  Clouds, white and soft

  As a pillow,

  Birds wishing

  That clouds were

  Their homes

  As they flap

  Their wings up

  In the sky.

  The sun brightly

  Shining as a light bulb

  Does when it’s turned

  On.

  The way I

  Feel when I

  Walk out my door,

  This is all the morning

  Nature.

  Careless World

  It’s hard

  Living in a

  World where

  No one cares,

  Where no one

  Gives a crap about

  You.

  It’s even

  Harder knowing

  That you’re

  Not worth anything.

  You try

  And you try

  To think about

  What’s good about

  You, but there’s nothing.

  You try

  To not think

  About the

  Negative

  Thoughts, but

  You can never

  Stop because this

  Is a careless world.

  Sounds From Nature

  The whispers

  Of the wind

  Brings mellow

  Sounds.

  Life Is Short

  I sit,

  I think.

  I think about

  The good and bad,

  The wrong and

  The right and the

  Bad feelings that

  I have to fight with

  All my might and I

  Wonder if I’ll ever be

  Alright,

  But I try

  Not to because

  Life is short.

  Beauty

  Beauty is not

  From the inside,

  It’s from the out.

  Beauty is inside

  Of every individual,

  Not only one.

  Beauty is meant

  To be beautiful,

  Not ugly.

  Beauty is just

  …Beauty.

  I’m In Love

  I’m in love,

  I’m in love with

  The fact that I have

  Feelings,

  Feelings to love and care

  For you.

  I’m in love

  With the fact

  That you hurt me

  And I hurt you,

  Because now we love

  Each other more.

  I’m in love

  With the fact

  That I can’t stop

  Thinking about

  You.

  I’m in love

  With the fact

  That I never

  Want to let you

  Go.

  Strike

  Strikes come down

  On me whenever I give

  You another chance.

  It’s like

  You got me

  On a hold,

  A hold I want

  To break but,

  Can’t.

  Every single

  Time I say

  “Goodbye”,

  I’m knocking on your door

  Saying “I want you back”

  But still,

  I always get

  Struck thinking

  You may have changed.

  A few more

  Strikes left,

  I’m broken.

  So, God help

  Me get the strength

  To not get struck

  Anymore,

  I’m leaving you

  For good.

  Falling In Love

  For you,

  I don’t mind

  Falling because

  It’s the depths

  Of love,

  Not the depths

  Of hell.

  Lover’s World

  I’m in

  The lover’s world
/>   Where it’s only

  Me and you,

  You and me and we.

  It’s got me

  To where I never

  Want to leave.

  With both

  Of us,

  It’s like fire

  That never

  Goes out and

  When rain or

  Water tries to

  Come in,

  Our fire is stronger

  Than life

  Itself.

  I’m in

  The lover’s

  World of me and

  You… and I never

  Want to leave.

  Meaningful Nature

  Nature sounds

  Is like the sounds

  Of music to my ears

  That always has a meaning,

  A meaning of love,

  Comfort,

  Desire.

  Locked In Your Heart

  You have me

  Locked up

  Inside your heart

  Like I’m spending

  Time in jail for the crime

  Of loving you.

  At first,

  I was terrified

  From what people

  Were telling me,

  But I guess I got

  Too caught up and

  Ended up there.

  As I walked

  In,

  I could feel

  My anxiety kicking

  In,

  But as I got in

  Further,

  I was beginning

  To see clearly,

  That it wasn’t that

  Bad,

  That it was

  Beautiful and

  Loving and that

  I would never want

  To leave because

  It was your heart

  That I was in.

  My Heart

  My heart

  Is shattered

  Like glass and

  It won’t glue back

  Together as it should

  Be.

  My heart

  Is broken

  Like paper being

  Torn to pieces.

  My heart

  Is being stomped

  On like people

  Stomping on bugs.

  My heart

  Is useless.

  The Ocean

  The ocean

  Is beautiful,

  The way is sways

  And the huge waves.

  The beautiful

  Sounds the ocean

  Makes,

  The color of

  The ocean like

  The color of lakes.

  Watching

  The sunset,

  Sitting,

  Relaxing,

  And watching

  The beautiful ocean.

  I Don’t Love You, I Despise You